These are some journal entries I found in my old Journal around the same time I met James.
October 20, 2004
I was returning to my apartment and I saw that the gang was there. When I went inside I noticed a guy sitting in the corner. We were introduced, and I thought he was really good looking and there was something about him, but he was short so I pushed it to the back o f my head and left so that i could go do homework.
Oct 29, 2004
The Church put on a young single adult Halloween dance, I started to notice James at that time. He was extremely good looking, and all I knew was there was something about him. As the night went on, I wanted to talk to him, but every time I saw him he was talking to another girl.
Oct 31 2004
This morning I went to the Fanno Creek Ward. I heard Melissa say James was giving his home-comming talk in sacrament that day. I also went because I was still deciding weather to go to a family ward instead of a singles ward. but that's not the point. I sat next to Megan and past notes back and forth until James stood up at the stand. Both Megan and I sat still and listened. You could tell he was nervous but you could also tell he was prepared. In closing his talk, he bore his testimony in Tagolog. I was so impressed. Not like a laural when an RM comes home but more like the desire to get to know him.
After sacrament meeting I asked Megan to come with me to tell James he gave a good talk. We were making are way to him when Rebecca stopped us to talk to Megan, By the time Meg and Becca were finished Megan James had dissapeared I was disapointed I still hadn't had a chance to talk to him. I was seriously upset with this girl Becca who stopped me from talking to James. When Meghan and Becca where done talking Meghan told me that Rebecca was James' sister. I felt stupid.
A few minutes later Meghan and I bumped into James while he was talking to Joel. James smiled at me, I got butterflies and tripped over my own shoe. It was kinda embarrassing.
November 5, 2004
Oh what a good day. Melissa had invited me to go shoe shopping. I had gotten a gift card at payless and I wanted new shoes and she was looking for new sandles. After shoe shopping we picked up my navy blue punk rock dress Laura had left the week before, and we went back to Melissa's house to get ready for a wedding reception.
Eric, Danny, Megan, Kenzie Melissa, Jenn, James, David and I all went to the reception. I was there for about 15 min when I noticed James eating by himself. I went over said hi and then left. Later on I saw James dancing with a little girl 7 years old. It was cute. It was one of those things that make girls awe and owe over. My heart really melted. After the reception we all went salsa dancing down town. I had gone before with Danny and Brandon so I was ready to party.
We decidedto drive together. We took David's suburban. I jumped in the bery back and Eric climbed in afterward. James about about to climb in but hat the last sec he sat in the middle seat. He had a gray and red knitted hat on. I took it from him. Eric and I talked all the way.
When we got to the place it was packed. I danced with everyone. It was so much fun. Later on that night most of the gang was sitting on the benches when I noticed James, he was having so much fun. Before I could talk myself out of doing something stupid I went over to James and started dancing. As we were dancing we both looked down at the same time and bumped heads. I think I might like him, but it's too soon to tell.
November 07, 2004
Yesterday was just terrible. I got over worked and worried about everything. Kenzie never came home and that threw me over board. I called up Conney (eric's mom, and the mother of our group) and we talked. By the end of our converstation I felt a lot better but it wasn't until Conney asked me if I would like a blessing that I finally felt peace. I asked Eric if he and James could give me a blessing. He said yes, and he said he'd talk to James also.
So today, being a Sunday and a fast Sunday at that, he been filled with the spirit. I went to Fanno Creek ward this morning Eric and I had already planned on giving me a blessing after church. I saw James but we couldn't find Eric. Finally, I had to leave to go to the Singles war. I am the Relief Society Securtary and I had paper work to do.
Eric and James along with Ashley, Kenzie, Danny Melissa and David all came to the singles ward. We all sat next to each other I sat up against the wall and next to David. During Sacrament, David started playing with this really cool ring. I asked if I could see it. He let me play with it for a while and then I gave it back to him. The ring Reminded me of a ring I saw on the internet right before I went to El Salvador. The ring I wasy was an engagement ring but still it was really nice.
After church was over we ent to break the fast. I told Eric that when he was done she should come find me. I was working on Securtary stuff. I didn't wan to brake my fast yet so I just worked. I wanted to brake my fast after the blessing. With not luck i was spotted by myself by a group of really nice poeple. They told me to come sit with them. I really didn't feel like it but I sat by them anyway. From the seat I was sitting in I could see Eric and James eating. I wished i was sitting next to thme but I felt obligated to stay.
The group that I was sitting with talked about little stuff but I felt so out of place it was hard to make small talk. Finally out of the blue I saw Eric and James coming over. I was so excited. They looked really good. They were a mix between angels and FBI agents. I was so excited to see them. I was even surprised at how excited I was to see them. I left the group, asked Eric and James to wait a moment and then I ran over to my brother Will and his girl friend Jenni gave them hugs and then went back to Eric and James.
I fallowed Eric and James to a small classroom. Eric gave the blessing and James accompanied. The blessing was just what I had needed. I know everything was going to be fine. Kenzie and I will be able to work through our trials, being secratary won't kill me. If I end up going to a family ward it will be fine. Everything will work out if I have faith. Just one thing caught be off guard. Eric said something like "your future husband will fall in love with your smile and through your service you will meet the one you will marry." Weird. Oh well, the Lord knows what He is doing. I can't wait to find out what's His plan.
Later on that group got together at Eric's house. James brought over his missionary pictures. I wanted to see them but everyone was looking at them and I don't really know James so I didn't look.
Oh I totally forgot one part. Rewind. Aftrer the blessing, I gave Eric a hug. I didn't really know if I could hug James but I would have felt dumb just shaking his hand. So I asked James if I could hug him too. He laughed, It was like a big bear hug, you know the ones your Grandpa gives. He started to chuckle. Oh I was embarrassed. I asked him "what" and he said "nothing."
Ok back to the part I left.
I went down stairs for a while. Later on I went back up stairs and James and Ashley were looking at his pictures. Okay I was curious. I silently sat down next to James and Ashley and listened in. They were just finishing. I was bumped. Ashley left and I asked to look at the pictures. James stayed and looked at the pictures with me. The pictures reminded me of El Salvador. We talked and looked at the pictures together. In the middlw of our conversation, Danny and Kenzie asked to talk to me. I didn't want to leave James but I had to. Kenzie took me down stairs. Her and Danny talked to me about how they don't like each other and how they are just friends. With the way they acted I had no idea, but I finally don't care anymore. YEAH!
After was seemed like forever, I walked out of the room feeling so embarrassed that I had ever had a crush on Danny.
I went back up stairs, James was still waiting. We went back to talking about the Philippines. I must had been sitting with him 5 minutes when something cool happened. On one of James' fingers was the puzzle ring I had seen earlier. I stopped our conversation to talk about his ring. He took it apart and showed me how to put it back together. He then let me see the ring. I put it on my thumb. It was so cool.
By the time we finished looking at pictures it was around 10:30pm. I had school the next morning. My first class is at 6:30am. It's a fitness class so I decided i needed to go. James decided he needed to go too. Then everybody said it was time to go. We said good byes and went home. OH MY GOSH! You will never believe what happened next. After James had left I was walking to my car when I noticed I was playing with something on my finger. I STILL HAVE HIS RING! I can't believe I forgot to give it back. Oh well, I'll give it to him tomorrow at FHE or at Instituted on Thursday if he doesn't come tomorrow. Oh my, I have written a novel I better go to bed. Good night.
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